Wasting your Potential (brain cells reading this)

I wipe my ass with emo sheet music, and use black eyeliner around my asshole so I feel like Im winking at the picture.

I like hipsters. I like spikey belts. I like tee shirts with silly sayings. I am the people that profit from them. I love pop music. When Emo went pop like a piñata I was the one who smashed it with a waffle bat and then caught all the wristbands, and Angels and Airwaves demo CDs that fell out. I am joking.

I still smoke. I love tobacco I am staid and lackluster and lack direction or the ability to take them. I am the collective ennui of the class of 2000. I am still 18. I was born in 1981.

I still wear the same red sweatshirt. I drink the occasional 40 ounce. I prefer Budweiser cans for cookouts with a Recycling bin full of Jungle Juice to bar stools and martinis. I still dont dance in public.

Im still horrible with women. I always will be. I still have no self esteem. My main objective in life is and will always be to make people smile.

I still find jobs that pay by the hour. Ive never calculated a salary. I dont want make anything yearly. I am content. Too content, they say. I make my money hourly and get paid weakly, when I have a job.

I am the anal lovechild of Ignatius J. Reilly and Howard Roark, I dont know who shat me out.

I will be forever in debt to my friends. I can count them on one foot. They have never given me the boot. They probably should have. I owe money to everybody, few people will ever be repaid monetarily. Some will be repaid momentarily.

I hate cities. I hate tourists more. I grew up in the ocean, when I was one. I love Cape Cod, I cant afford to live there anymore. Now I live anywhere, I can see skyscrapers from the bottom of my road. I want to be blown in a sand dune. Id like to add again to that sentence.

I wish to live my life moderately sober. I still like the patina a pint of whiskey paints on a sunset. I never want to be too old too drugs recreationally and I never want to be young enough to rationalize my addictions again.

Id do your cocaine right now, and save mine for never. Just to save it. Id smoke a bong load right now, just to pull the slide.

I am myself for now, you can be later. I will live my life for now, you can live it later. You dont call this living. To you its wasting time. I will waste my life for now because youre are always wasting my time.